One hour, two WODs

Today I did two WODs. Friday’s workout:
2 power cleans 95 lbs
5 toes to bar
EMOTM 15 minutes. It took some determination and focus to do the cleans well, and to do the toes to bar as efficiently as I could and not flail. But it wasn’t demoralizing.

Then I did the “Mary” workout for the first time.
5 handstand push-ups (I used one AbMat)
10 alternating pistols (easy in squat shoes)
15 pull-ups
AMRAP 20 minutes. I got six rounds 13 reps. I feel that today I did four of the most fun exercises: the clean, and all 3 of the “Mary” ones. Now my arms are tired.

Sometimes I don’t work out for a few days other than random exercises here and there, gym warm-ups, etc. and I feel so lazy; but on those days I’m usually spending my off hours doing office work (business stuff for the gym) or home-related errands, and then I spend any free time reading (to rest). Then on some other days I do my rings workout or a heavy lift, but not a WOD. Then I beat myself up when I see a super dedicated woman CrossFitter with such an awesome body and I realize my physique reflects what I do and don’t do and that’s all there is to it. I believe in what I’m doing, not that it’s perfect, but the fact is I can’t be awesome at everything and have a perfect body.

I rely on discipline: the established fact that I will always get back to working out hard within a few days of not doing it. I always do. The body wants to sit and read, but it also wants to move and feel like I did something hard. So then I do WODs for a few days and go through the whole thing again: “When’s the last time I lifted heavy? Am I current on my rings workouts?”